Trying to be Authentic


Trying to be yourself doesn’t require effort. All these methods you’ve created to find yourself is much like a person looking for the location “here”. No matter where you go on or off this earth, you are always here.

To be authentic is actually effortless in the same way, but to plan and try to look a certain way is actually where trying begins. People “try” to look like something because they must feel pressure and judgement from themselves.

“…but to plan and try to look a certain way is actually where trying begins.”

Playing the game is felt by people and I’ll speak up if it gets out of hand. To bring certain people to an awareness of what they’re “trying” to do isn’t typically my thing, but I may speak up once again. The game of comparing and upping another is still a game of the ego.

To have a deep conversation about a spiritual nature, I feel I can hold my own, but I just let go when I’m not discussing it in a detailed post. To be that mindful of every word or phrase used seems like a personal prison. (Topic of free-will)

This situation happened the other night while discussing “healing”. At a deeper level you could just realize that “healing” happens because of the “patients” energy and not the “healer”. You could also have a deeper understanding of it by realizing that this is just part of the universal plan to have people meet, and then to have “healing” occur.

Whichever way you perceive it, from the micro to the macro view, that freedom belongs to you how to express that word and meaning to cater to the masses. To worry about the sticklers who want to spell check your every word to display superiority is a waste of anyone’s life unless that’s your job. People who have higher knowledge actually don’t look at petty corrections I’d hope…

The examples I’ve left here are basic everyday things to look at. Within your daily routines and living life, to be free and wildly expressive is a great release. You’re not “trying” to be someone because you already are that person. To micromanage your every word and policing your every movement because you’re afraid of judgement is a terrible mental prison.

“You’re not “trying” to be someone because you already are that person.”

To be honest, I did a lot of introspection before I let go into this space. I looked at myself and I accepted who I saw in the reflection. Being authentic is the most real version of yourself. Shedding the thoughts and efforts of “appearing” a certain way and trading it for simply “being” will be one of the greatest releases yet one of the greatest realizations.

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How to use Personal Power

As I walked one day with a friend I brought up the topic of personal power. As this phrase has been used quite often in posts I’d like to share what this means to me.

In the perspective of a personal balance and ego, whether you feel more or less empowered by people or an event happening around you is really a game of the ego.

Needing self-empowerment and  personal power are just a sign that something within you should shift. If you should feel you are lacking in these areas, it’s time to reevaluate where you stand in life. The state of equanimity is the state of deep serenity within.

“True personal power is being in the presence of your own greatness independent of people around you.”

Walking into a room with personal power shouldn’t be a strut of arrogance comparing yourself to others and feeling higher than others. It should be a shameless, confident walk with a deeper look and an understanding of who you really are. All comparisons fall away because they really don’t matter when your focus is on yourself and how you feel. Personal power is being in the presence of your own greatness independent of people around you.

Your personal view of yourself and how you judge yourself is one of the greatest challenges you’ll need to face, but watch how you implement your use of personal power. Don’t feel less than who you are and feel down, but to push it beyond into the other spectrum is to create imbalance with your own self image.

“..notice the serenity arise within that space.”

To find that point of equilibrium, there shouldn’t be an effort but more of an observation. The awareness of your personal view of yourself and when you feel higher than someone or lower than someone is that sign of the ego creeping in. Simply watch your thoughts, notice how you feel and you should notice the serenity arise within that space.

In this post about personal power the key is to be mindful of your use and understanding of that phrase. Like the Yin and Yang or the Buddhist’s teaching of the middle way, this is the exact time to implement such understandings and to feel lighter.

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Hopes and Expectations.

Lately I’ve been interacting with few but considerably aware people. I tend to gather inspiration from interactions from certain individuals and then I’m able to create. It allows for posts and possibly YouTube videos or audios to be created.

I see the challenges within their lives and I see how I relate to these situations as well. These hurdles that they face are often the exact challenges I faced or still face today on occasion.

As pioneers and dreamers, we often have many hopes and dreams, but many do not come to fruition. We try to reach an audience, a group with similar views but this could be the crux of many visions and dreams.

As many have heard “It was the expectation that hurt the most.”. This applies to all things in life whether it be a friend, a partner, or even an event, it was the expectation that hurt. On top of noticing that pain, but the realization that you created that expectation that caused that discomfort came from yourself is the real kicker.

As I had coffee with another friend, he said the same thing about people hurting your feelings. Another great lesson when you realize nobody hurts your feelings besides yourself. Your thoughts and beliefs of what someone says about you is up to you whether you accept it or not.

In all cases, the outcome of the event can possibly bring about elation or disappointment depending on your mindset. Hopes are always there whenever we take action in our lives, yet our hopes don’t always have expectations accompanying it.

In the end, be open enough to realize that to fulfill your (expect)ations isn’t a requirement that the universe owes anyone, but at every precious moment granted to us… Hope and dream as big as possible.

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Free Healing Meditation in Richmond Hill!

I’m planning to build a foundation for my future students, and I’m looking for people with physical ailments. I’ll be holding a FREE group meditation at a park which can often help with various physical discomforts.


There will be no one on one work being done by me but I’ll be under the PICNIC SHELTER in Richmond Green from 7 to 8pm providing free energy for the taking. (Pets are welcome too) Just sit under the area and see what will happen to your pains.


Please inform me of your participation in my group because I will not intrude by offering anything to people not wanting this service.


Any healers in the Markham/Richmond Hill area wanting to connect, assist or just discuss energy philosophy, please come by and visit.


I will be the Asian man with long graying hair under the PICNIC SHELTER so please approach me and notify me of your participation.


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Judgement and Advice

Today I will speak about judgement, advice and how it often takes the form of righteous judgement leading to giving others advice.

To the people giving out advice, be mindful of what you share. At this moment I’m trying to be in a neutral space of observation as I type now.

By no means is this written for one person, in fact, it applies to me as well at all times. To have people looking for direction in life, I try to stay impartial and speak from observation, not judgement.

“Kindly let me help you or you will drown said the monkey, putting the fish safely up a tree.”
~Alan Watts

Often advice seems like you’re helping others in your point of view but offering it to specific people, even if they aren’t reaching out for advice is something else.

Offering advice when others never asked, or even showed an inkling of stress should be a huge neon signpost. In this very situation, it isn’t them that has a problem, it’s actually YOU not accepting them. Think about this… Are you letting them be free, or are you wanting them to fit in the box that YOU want?


“Kindly let me help you or you will drown said the monkey, putting the fish safely up a tree.”
~Alan Watts

There are indeed individuals in this reality and it would seem this individual doesn’t fit into your “box” of expectations, or beliefs. To honour diversity and individuality in this world is the key to living peacefully.

Now the most important part is also knowing when to step away from people. Knowing the DUAL state of this world is very important. To know there are situations with contrasts involved, know that there is oneness but that they belong in a different ripple or wave in this ocean of life.

To know the contrast in this world is also to know some won’t vibe with you or could be potentially abrasive to your lifestyle. Please walk away, because many can’t change and could cause you great distress.

To know judgement vs observation is a powerful tool to navigate through life. It could help with not being fooled and being able to walk away mindfully.

Offering advice may seem like assisting in correcting someone’s path, but as someone suggested, “you cannot change people no matter how much you think they should change. People change themselves.”.

When simply observing actions by others, I realized it was the adviser that wasn’t satisfied, not the person they’re trying to give advice to.

Without complaint, you’re living life in a satisfied state, but I suppose the person giving advice must feel triggered by what they see and judge your life in comparison to how they are living.

We all lived a different life growing up and these experiences shaped our lives. Culture, gender, beliefs, experiences all had an effect just to mention a few. Our upbringing is so incredibly diverse, how could we judge how to live and act?

At this point, I only try to offer advice when someone asks, continually complains about their miserable life (not just minor gripes) or someone tries to push me to change. After a few suggestions for me to change, I will speak up about their “advice” and give them this point of view.

“Who isn’t satisfied? Is it really me or are you not accepting me as an individual?”

So after seeing how advice and judgement can affect a person’s growth and how it really isn’t my business to get involved, I will advise others only when I am prompted to do so and I’m going to ignore the rest. I have enough things to process in life to worry about others.

In the spiritual community, I’m known as a physical healer at best and not an emotional healer, a philosopher or a guru to give others advice. People’s lives are way too complex for me and I’m too lazy to get involved besides writing a post or two now and again.

Whether you’re a person giving advice or a person receiving constant advice from others, I hope something here in this post proves to be useful in some way.

Spirituality and Veganism?

I saw a question the other day about whether veganism would help with a person’s spirituality. For some background into this individuals challenges, he has anxiety and a touch of depression. This person also expressed his discomfort with eating meat but mentioned that his family had been doing this since his birth and also that this was still the norm to eat meat in society.

In this post we will take a deeper look into a person’s spiritual development, and how a person’s eating choices can directly influence a person’s growth.

“Once unified, all actions will become an act of freedom and expression.”

To explain more clearly about this matter, some level of awareness must arise from eating meat first. Secondly, the person must also have some regret, guilt, or some difficulty with eating meat. This resistance can also appear in the form of a feeling or it can manifest in defensive actions. I must also mention that others who have not come to these conclusions, will not be affected in their development.

An excuse or explanation is actually a defensive action. Think about this person for example. He threw in the example of how long his family’s been eating meat and that it is the choice of the majority in order to try to justify the action of eating meat. There’s always a “but” in his statement because he’s finding the path a daunting one to live and eat like a vegan. He could also be contemplating the judgement and disapproval of his friends and family.

Have you ever wondered why people try to get others to do “bad” things? I have, and I often feel people try to entice others into the “bad” behaviour so that they can feel less guilty, or so they have a feeling of shared responsibility.

“The true issue is living in conflict with your own thoughts and actions…”

I feel that society is becoming more aware of what is actually going on with animals, options to escape the societal pressure to obey and conform needs to be presented. In this case, it’s as basic as knowing your own truth and living it.

Following makes life seem easier, but by doing so often causes conflict in many people. These resistances are often shrugged off since everyone else is doing it, so again the shared responsibility kicks in. You might feel good for a short while, but distractions in life can only help you forget your actions that cause misalignment for a short while.

If people eating meat can say that they love animals (not just their pets), but continue to eat meat, they create conflict within themselves. This would create stress 3x a day on most eating schedules and leave people with a sense of misalignment. The real conflict is between what they say and what they do.

Stress, anxiety, depression are a great burden to begin with. Now throw in judgement of daily food choices into the mix and imagine how this can take a person off their spiritual game.

“Whoever sees me sees the teaching, and whoever sees the teaching sees me.”

To be fully in alignment with your true self, one will then have no internal conflict with what one says and what one does. Once unified, all actions will become an act of freedom and expression.

Like I’ve mentioned before, if you have absolutely no qualms with eating meat, you will not be affected and can ascend as others will. The true issue is living in conflict with your own thoughts and actions that will take you out of a unified movement towards your true being.

“Whoever sees me sees the teaching, and whoever sees the teaching sees me.”

~Siddhārtha Gautama

To sum this post up, it isn’t dependant on being a vegan or a vegetarian to develop to a higher level of consciousness, it is merely a matter of living your truth. Now that you’re armed with the knowledge of how to be in full alignment with your true self, go out and take action!

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2 vibrations sent in this video. (Test yourself)

So here is the second test in this mini-series so far. By testing your sensitivity you will soon realize you have developed yourself in the area of the projection of the same energy. Watch this video Here!

Be sure to watch the beginning of the series for further instructions in this video Here!

Remember to log what you felt in each vibration throughout the series and at the end I will reveal what I did and see what you felt when I transferred the energy through the screen. Good luck to you all!

How I experienced ONENESS?

No matter which viewpoint you take in this world, you should always see the oneness in it all. Viewpoints in life bring rise to separation and duality in our physical reality. Let me explain further…

“To resist what is offered by form is to deny the understanding of the formless.”

My movement, for example, is one in which people and healing styles should be expressed freely and not to be contained by systems or fixed by rules. Perhaps I’ve taken this viewpoint just to provide the contrast to the majority of beliefs and to give rise to another perspective. Although I try to play the role well, I still see the oneness behind this formless movement I’m creating.

To resist what is offered by form is to deny the understanding of the formless. One gives rise to the other in the reality of duality. Without egoic boundaries of who we think we are or what we believe in, we lose our identities and melt into the oneness… It then finally stops being us vs them.

Up does not exist if there is no down, the light would not be known if not for darkness, or what would be considered right without a wrong? The contrasts in the world of duality only come into existence when one of the two states implies the other.

In each case presented, have you realized that these positions of understanding or beliefs only exist in juxtaposition to the other? They are literally the flip side of the exact same coin. One example is dependant on the other to bring rise to the complementary opposite.

This view was further demonstrated by a close brush with death which left me with the deep knowing of the philosophical understanding of oneness. It took me waking from this near-death experience to allow me to not just conceptualize the idea of oneness, but to know it.

“That barren experience of Death had gifted me with such a rich experience of life.”

That lack of any sensory feedback from that dark void gave my waking life a whole new perspective. It was that great contrast between life and death that completed my understanding of oneness.

At that moment, all my sensory experiences exploded with such detail as I climbed out of darkness into the illumination of consciousness. That barren experience of Death had gifted me with such a rich experience of life.

“To live and to live life robustly in the present moment brought me to the most direct experience with life and to intimately know oneness.”

The barriers had dropped and I was left with only my experiences. There were no more goals to achieve, no goals… except to live in its entirety.

To this moment I give thanks for my brief visit to the void, for it showed me how precious life truly is. To live and to live life robustly in the present moment brought me to the most direct experience with life and to intimately know oneness. It’s great to be back, but I’ve decided I’m going to live life differently this time around.

What do you really want?

Have you ever asked yourself deeply about what you really want? No, really… have you?

Before we get into this topic, I must address a certain understanding I realized many people still don’t see or notice. Many times spiritual people look for “spiritual” items which may or may not be a tangible item in the physical world. These items are exactly the same as others living a fully material experience buying fancy clothing, cars, houses, and outward fame, success, power etc.

Many of my discussions from long ago often pointed to this understanding that spiritual pursuits are merely rebranded to seem spiritual, yet they remain just things like wearing a fancy clothing brand.

By swapping the name or focus of the item doesn’t change the fundamental illusion, and the temporary pleasure of getting that item. Instead of that new white gold bracelet, you buy mala beads, or instead of being a snob in a social club, you’re now a spiritual snob trying to prove you’re more spiritual than the next person.

At this point I’d like to bring you back to the main topic at hand and how this all relates to what you really want. Behind all these things that we chase no matter whether it’s a material item or a spiritual item, we feel that through these items we will finally reach happiness.

Think about it… All the things you’ve told yourself “I want this” or “I want to achieve that” leads you to the same exact place… You’ve been trapped in the illusion of Maya this whole time!

“You’ve been trapped in the illusion of Maya this whole time!”

So no matter what name you’ve given your physical or spiritual goal, by saying I’m looking for enlightenment, power, less ego, or success, you’ve set yourself up for failure. In this shadow boxing scenario where you’re looking for that KO punch, your success lies in another plane of existence.

Focus NOW on finding happiness because the hurdles you’ve created by making it some sort of promise that you will be happy when these goals are reached, is the greatest trap you’ve created for yourself.

Go for your goal directly, and not in a round about way. Happiness is not based on all these dependencies, it should always be a direct experience of life. If you’re living life with a goal in mind, your experience of life has been lived with a barrier.

These goals have created a barrier between you and living your life fully! By being distracted by these methods to prove to yourself and others that you are enlightened, or more evolved, it has literally stolen life from you.

So I’m hoping I’ve shown you something that has gotten you closer to knowing what you want and how you’ve been seeking happiness this whole time in the realm of Maya. The rest of your journey must be taken by you.

To reach this state for you specifically would require your own understanding or simple guidance from another seeing past these illusions. I often see what many are doing but if you never admit or reach out for guidance, nobody can help except yourself. Good luck on your journey.

My Near Death Experience and my Reawakening!

So, I didn’t post this until now but I had this video sitting ready to be uploaded a while ago. It wasn’t the easiest video to speak out about bei

ng typically a private and actually introverted person, but I figure this is my log of my journey so I might as well go for it! I hope some of you get something out of my video log of my life.

My NDE & reawakening video!